ok~ so i dunno whether i’m giving the right title for this post anot… but i’m pretty sure it’s going to be abt my Conversation with my college friends..
so, things go like this. i can’t say i’m not close with my college classmates, but we are still new to each other. so i guess i should really take care of my words, as in i shouldn’t speak till like i’m a…. a…. (i dunno) horny? haha.. or fierce? wild(i dun think so)? ya, i guess i should take care of my image THOUGH! i kinda lose it already.. haha.. but anyway! i should, sounds more like a good girl than some.. (ya, you know).. so yea! take care of the way i speak! The End!
annyeong~ peace!
i dun understand what’s wrong with me.. it’s like… my life is getting more and more… i just dunno how should i describe it, and what’s the best way to describe my life…
i’ve lose my confidence… and i realized this earlier.. i realized i care too much sometimes, every single thing… as if everything matters a lot to me.
Every time, before i click “enter” to comment, i will hesitate. i scared i said the wrong thing.
Every time, before i click “sent” to message my friend, to comfort her, i will hesitate. i scared i make her even madder with my message.
Every time, before i reply a person in a conversation, i paused, i hesitate, afraid saying the wrong things, afraid of them thinking i’m weird/ lame.
Every time, before i walked out from my wardrobe, i will look at the mirror again. and ended up stood in front of the mirror for 10 minutes, thinking the way i wear Suck alot, and i look fat.. real fat.. then i end up changing back to my same old clothes…
i care too much about what the others think, and causes me loses all my confidence. maybe i should have be like the same old me when i was still in primary school? i dunno.
my life is miserable without confidence.
now, i’m trying to get back my confidence. hope i will become the same old confident girl!!
"还蛮累的，整天要出去。哈哈。搞到我好像有点像个宅女。"
actually, there isn’t a LOT to do for this month.. just that i am too lazy to do my homeworks, assignments and all. so when everything accumulates, it looks like there is a LOT a LOT to do..
i haven’t finish editing the 10 minutes video for my Malaysian studies subject. it’s an assignment, and this falls under video presentation. actually i enjoy editing it. it’s not a big problem for me, just that, i was too lazy to get it done for the past few days and i think the deadline is this week, and as we all know that time pass so fast. in a blink of an eye, it could be the deadline, and i’m still not done with the video. BUT obviously, i dun hope this happen. i dun like to disappoint ppl (although sometimes other ppl do disappoint me *k, getting out of topic*) and i’m having test this week. Phy and Math.. and Math test is in the next 10 hours (i guess) and i’m not prepare at all! cuz i totally forgot abt it.. and freaking tired now~ feel like sleeping right now. hope i dun get too stress out for this week.
got to go now~ Off to bed!
chao! Bye! Zai jian! sayonara! Annyeong!
Good night! Oyasuminasai! Annyeongi jumuseyo! chal-ja!
All the best to myself and YOU, who’s reading this!
So~ i got 7A and 2B. i’m happy with it basically. but there’s one thing i’m not feeling comfortable is that i’m afraid of my classmates ask me abt my result. as in my current classmates. cuz they are all freaking smart.. most of them got straight As, compare to me, my result is like.. “bleh~ *suckshit!*” and then they will be showing the face “oh, ok~” Urgh! hate those faces.. *stupid* anyway, i can’t do any shits.. so just FACE IT! that’s life~ and btw, my results is not “that” bad right!!! hahaha..
"Live your life! don’t let these selfish people to control you!! who cares about them right??
and yeah! i’m a Kpop fans! so what?!! you hate it? then just shut up!! i dun give a shit if you like it or not… btw, it’s rude to insult people’s idol, sucker!!"
"Don’t care if they like you or not! If you tried your best on treating them nice and yet they don’t appreciate it, just give up on them! Ask yourself, are they worth feeling sad, depress for??? I would say NO!! not worth it at all!!"
"sometimes, we just have to learn how to ignore certain things, certain people, certain moment. Sometimes when we care too much, our life will become shorter because living a life full of frustrations and pain does kill our lifetimes!"
